My Great Family!

Chad and I took the kids to the park tonight. It was the most amazing, incredible feeling as I sat back and watched the kids play. I watched Payton as his big blue eyes intently watched the other kids on the playground. He has been out so little and has had such little interaction around other kids that it was neat to watch him be so excited to play. I watched him closely and wished that I could read his little mind as I wondered what was going through his little head as he grinned the whole time. I felt such happiness and joy as I was able to watch his little body run free and it made me wonder if I’d be watching him this intently if we hadn’t been through the nightmare we’ve lived through the past year. It’s made me slow down, evaluate what’s important in my life and enjoy the smallest littlest moments that life has to offer. I closely watched Savannah and felt happy as I watched her smile as well. She probably feels as if she hasn’t had her family to do things like this with her much over the past year. She spent most of her time swinging; I also wondered what she was thinking as well as I watched her beautiful blonde hair soar in the wind. When Savannah was a little girl, she used to hate the swing. She would scream and clinch. You wouldn’t know that now, she swung like she was free without a care in the world and I thought to myself that she so deserves that happiness as well after everything that she has been through. I thought to myself that this is the life that kids should have. What great kids that I have. I feel truly blessed, proud and so happy that I have them both. I’m not sure what I would ever do without them. I have to admit that since all this has happened with Payton I spend a lot of time watching my kids and thinking and asking myself what if they weren’t here tomorrow, how would I want to spend my last day with them? I’ve quickly learned how quick your life can be turned upside. Enjoy them, love them and take care of them, since we never know what tomorrow might bring. And if you are going through a struggle right now, pray for strength and you will be given the strength to get through whatever challenge you are going through.