Farwell Everyone!

It’s crazy when I think about where we were just a year ago at this time. Payton was in the hospital for 21 days, trying to recover from a hard round of chemo. I look back now and I’m not quite sure how we ever made it through. I really enjoyed our vacation and enjoyed watching my kids just be kids and enjoyed watching them have fun. I watched Payton and counted my blessing that he was there with us. I really wondered over the past year if we would see the day that he would recover and be able to move on with life as a little boy.

I look at Payton today and hope the best for my little guy. I think about all that he has endured often and I am so grateful to see him recovering. I think about all the potential effects that the chemo and radiation could have on him often. Will we be able to avoid them? Will this ever return? I pray all the time that I will continue to see Payton grow. How do you separate yourself from the life and fear that you have been living? I try so hard to move on and yet it still lives so deep within my heart that all I have to do is think about it and it automatically brings me to tears. I am amazed at the strength that I have been given throughout this. I just don’t know how you could ever get through a crisis like this without the strength of our Heavenly Father. How lucky I am to have such a special little boy? I don’t know what I did to deserve him but he has strengthened me and given me the courage that I need to get through life and he will always have a special place in my heart.

I cannot believe how handsome my little guy is, Payton looks so great with his hair coming back in. He is so full of energy and I could spend every minute of every day watching him and thoroughly enjoying him for he truly has stolen my heart. He truly amazes me and because of him I am a better person today and always. I did a lot of thinking on this vacation. Family means everything to me and it was so great to see him be with his Grandparents, Uncles, Aunts and Cousins whom love him so much. Treasure every moment that you get to see your kids, for we never know what lies ahead. Be patient with them and spend quality time with them for they are only young once.

We made it home from our vacation and we are all feeling a little sad to have to say goodbye. Thank you Parents, Aunts, Uncles and Cousins for making our vacation the best! We Love you all!